before virmire, he disassembles it, gives the blue half to kaidan and the orange to ashley, just in case. ash tumbles through the portal with barely enough time to be pulled onboard the normandy before the bomb goes off.
shepard refuses to reassemble the gun after that, insisting that they keep their halves and swearing he’ll always be with one of them so he doesn’t need it.
when the normandy is disintegrating around them, kaidan hits one of the panels in the escape pod with half the portal as ash hits the other half on a panel next to shepard. he pulls himself through it and seconds later the portal disappears like so much static over the comms.
they’ve never tested the distance limits of the gun, but at the beam in london ash holds kaidan up on the ramp of the normandy and they press the blue half into shepard’s hands. just in case, they say.
and on the citadel, when the illusive man is dead, when anderson’s closed his eyes, shepard fires the portal gun.
you called, skipper?
they help him up and stand at his back. just like they always have.
Last night I dreamed they made an experimental patch for the ME storyline to have both Ashley and Kaidan with you, and I was playing some Citadel-like dlc in the setting of the third game, and Shepard was romancing Ashley since 1, and it was acknowledged, but Ashley and Kaidan still had scenes together much like how they were in ME1, and they were kinda flirty and teasing each other, and Shepard laughed at them, and they were all smiling and being so happy, and I made a bunch of screenshots and clips to post here
Then it all got erased from my memory like any other dream, but I logged in here and remembered, and now I’m sad.